My Complicated Life

i dont understand some people

Tue, 05 Feb 2013 01:09:02 -1000

ugh! i feel like i want to give up already. lately ive been stumbling through life. i cant seem to do anything right nor can i say anything right. im just really frustrated right now. i really like this one guy but again i said the wrong thing and now hes mad at me. we had our first fight already and we arent even in a relationship. apparently i was flirting with some other dude and he got mad but i didnt even know he didnt want me flirting with other dudes. i didnt even think i was flirting with that guy. he wasnt even cute to begin with. im just ready to give up already.

See yourself as garbage, and the flies will come

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 22:56:00 -1000

see yourself as garbage, and the flies will come. that means that if you see yourself as unworthy or if you think of yourself as no good, then thats what you’re going to get in return. what you are thinking is what people respond to. those are the people that you are attracting. so to turn this around, you need to change you’re tune and stop spreading your misery. you need to look for the positives inside you and to magnify those things with appreciation. once you do that, then that is when you need to spread that vibe. thats when you attract the good. “to love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.”-oscar wilde; when you love yourself, thats when you automatically attract feelings of love for others around you.

my favorite part from Mean Girls

Tue, 22 Jan 2013 14:44:42 -1000

Crying Girl: [reading from paper] I wish we could all get along like we used to in middle school... I wish I could bake a cake filled with rainbows and smiles and everyone would eat and be happy...
[about to cry]
Damian: [shouting from back] She doesn't even go here!
Ms. Norbury: Do you even go to this school?
Crying Girl: No... I just have a lot of feelings...
Ms. Norbury: Ok go home...
[girl walks off stage]
Ms. Norbury: Next!

no makeup=pure beauty

Wed, 19 Dec 2012 23:17:45 -1000

no makeup=pure beauty

im not smiling. im just simply frowning upside down.

Tue, 18 Dec 2012 18:17:42 -1000

im not smiling. im just simply frowning upside down.

Torn

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 21:48:46 -1000

Sitting here crying

All confused and not knowing what to do

I know what’s right but something pulls me in

I don’t know what

My heart is torn

Wrong or right

Knowing what the right thing to do is

There’s doubt

That doubt hovers over you

Like a dark gray cloud just waiting to explode

Drenched in tears

Still confused

What should I do?

Should I end the misery? Is it worth trying?

The more I lie to myself,

The more damage I do.

Decisions must be made

Good, clear, true decisions

No turning back

Torn

trapped reality

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 21:00:49 -1000

as i sit in my room

looking out the window

watching kids playing and be free

i sit there and think

i think about my reality

the reality that doesnt shed light

i wonder

is there a way to escape?

as i sit there, wondering

i imagine what i would feel

if i were to be free like those kids

smiling, laughing, enjoying

those days are gone

i have entered the real world

where smiling, laughing, and enjoying

would be a miracle

i’m trapped in this reality

no where to go

thinking of ways to get out

but nothing

winter ice

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 20:57:42 -1000

im incomplete without you

complete meant being with you

as our relationship grew

so did my heart

after awhile, things got out of control

my heart starts to crack

strength was no longer there

distance was growing bigger

my heart shatters into pieces

as if winter was over

and the frozen ice cracked

our relationship was a mess

and so am i

Dead

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 20:55:22 -1000

i’m dead

i died

a gunshot was heard

blood everywhere

sad music

playing at my funeral

people crying

blessed

the grave

my family

my friends

everyone praying

flying like an angel

watching

over you

you’ll be safe

inside and out

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 20:53:39 -1000

friday

start of the weekend

all of the stress

thinking about monday

brain waves are traveling

partying but silent

raining outside, cold

warm inside

breathing air

oxygen inside

growing

shrinking inside

lost

time zooming by

slowing down

rewind

Blind

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 20:45:11 -1000

i sit here alone

waiting for you

waiting for you to notice me

nothing

what will it take

i see you

but you dont see me

you dont see the real me

i walk beside you everyday

hoping you will see me

the real me

open your eyes

the signs are there

i feel your thoughts

my heart never lies

are you blind?

how or why

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 01:34:34 -1000

do you ever wonder how or why things happen? i am constantly thinking that and it never stops. i mostly wonder about the bad things which has been happening quite often lately.

IM DONE. (thats all im gonna say) you can take that however you want

Tue, 20 Nov 2012 17:47:08 -1000

IM DONE. (thats all im gonna say) you can take that however you want

get some soup

Tue, 13 Nov 2012 21:28:05 -1000

when the pressure of life gets you down and you wanna turn that frown upside down, dont be sad, dont be blue. MS. SUZY’S GOT A SOUP FOR YOU!

lifes a drag… it has its ups and downs and sometimes its just a straight line and nothing...

Tue, 13 Nov 2012 21:17:40 -1000

lifes a drag… it has its ups and downs and sometimes its just a straight line and nothing happens. thats when you realize your life is boring and you need to do something to make it exciting

Our Love

Thu, 01 Nov 2012 17:46:58 -1000

As we walk on the beach

And hold hands,

I feel love

I feel completion

I look into your eyes,

I gaze

I see compassion

I feel like I’m the one

As you hold me close,

I smile and think

How did I get so lucky

That a man like you could ever love me

My heart starts to beat,

My body feels warm

I interlock my fingers with yours

We were meant to be

Photo

Tue, 23 Oct 2012 23:45:21 -1000

this is what im trying to do right this very second… the...

Tue, 23 Oct 2012 23:44:55 -1000

this is what im trying to do right this very second… the pain just doesnt go away

being a girl...

Tue, 23 Oct 2012 23:39:53 -1000

sometimes i really hate being a girl. i mean the mood swings, the pmsing, and the other girl issues. i just hate it. and im really depressed and dont want to deal with life right now but as long as im alive im gonna have to deal with life no matter what. sometimes i wish i could just lock myself up in my room and not have to deal with anyone or anything

i dnt fucking care if u dnt care, I DONT LIKE IT. nd if u dnt like tht i dnt like it then i cld care...

Mon, 22 Oct 2012 01:36:43 -1000

i dnt fucking care if u dnt care, I DONT LIKE IT. nd if u dnt like tht i dnt like it then i cld care less. thts how i feel about it and i will continue to feel that way!