February 2013
2 posts
i dont understand some people
ugh! i feel like i want to give up already. lately ive been stumbling through life. i cant seem to do anything right nor can i say anything right. im just really frustrated right now. i really like this one guy but again i said the wrong thing and now hes mad at me. we had our first fight already and we arent even in a relationship. apparently i was flirting with some other dude and he got mad but...
See yourself as garbage, and the flies will come
see yourself as garbage, and the flies will come. that means that if you see yourself as unworthy or if you think of yourself as no good, then thats what you’re going to get in return. what you are thinking is what people respond to. those are the people that you are attracting. so to turn this around, you need to change you’re tune and stop spreading your misery. you need to look for...
January 2013
1 post
my favorite part from Mean Girls
Crying Girl: [reading from paper] I wish we could all get along like we used to in middle school... I wish I could bake a cake filled with rainbows and smiles and everyone would eat and be happy...
[about to cry]
Damian: [shouting from back] She doesn't even go here!
Ms. Norbury: Do you even go to this school?
Crying Girl: No... I just have a lot of feelings...
Ms. Norbury: Ok go home...
[girl walks off stage]
Ms. Norbury: Next!
December 2012
2 posts
November 2012
11 posts
Torn
Sitting here crying
All confused and not knowing what to do
I know what’s right but something pulls me in
I don’t know what
My heart is torn
Wrong or right
Knowing what the right thing to do is
There’s doubt
That doubt hovers over you
Like a dark gray cloud just waiting to explode
Drenched in tears
Still confused
What should I do?
Should I end the misery? Is it worth...
trapped reality
as i sit in my room
looking out the window
watching kids playing and be free
i sit there and think
i think about my reality
the reality that doesnt shed light
i wonder
is there a way to escape?
as i sit there, wondering
i imagine what i would feel
if i were to be free like those kids
smiling, laughing, enjoying
those days are gone
i have entered the real world
where smiling,...
winter ice
im incomplete without you
complete meant being with you
as our relationship grew
so did my heart
after awhile, things got out of control
my heart starts to crack
strength was no longer there
distance was growing bigger
my heart shatters into pieces
as if winter was over
and the frozen ice cracked
our relationship was a mess
and so am i
Dead
i’m dead
i died
a gunshot was heard
blood everywhere
sad music
playing at my funeral
people crying
blessed
the grave
my family
my friends
everyone praying
flying like an angel
watching
over you
you’ll be safe
inside and out
friday
start of the weekend
all of the stress
thinking about monday
brain waves are traveling
partying but silent
raining outside, cold
warm inside
breathing air
oxygen inside
growing
shrinking inside
lost
time zooming by
slowing down
rewind
Blind
i sit here alone
waiting for you
waiting for you to notice me
nothing
what will it take
i see you
but you dont see me
you dont see the real me
i walk beside you everyday
hoping you will see me
the real me
open your eyes
the signs are there
i feel your thoughts
my heart never lies
are you blind?
how or why
do you ever wonder how or why things happen? i am constantly thinking that and it never stops. i mostly wonder about the bad things which has been happening quite often lately.
IM DONE. (thats all im gonna say) you can take that however you want
get some soup
when the pressure of life gets you down and you wanna turn that frown upside down, dont be sad, dont be blue. MS. SUZY’S GOT A SOUP FOR YOU!
lifes a drag… it has its ups and downs and sometimes its just a straight line and nothing happens. thats when you realize your life is boring and you need to do something to make it exciting
Our Love
As we walk on the beach
And hold hands,
I feel love
I feel completion
I look into your eyes,
I gaze
I see compassion
I feel like I’m the one
As you hold me close,
I smile and think
How did I get so lucky
That a man like you could ever love me
My heart starts to beat,
My body feels warm
I interlock my fingers with yours
We were meant to be
October 2012
16 posts
being a girl...
sometimes i really hate being a girl. i mean the mood swings, the pmsing, and the other girl issues. i just hate it. and im really depressed and dont want to deal with life right now but as long as im alive im gonna have to deal with life no matter what. sometimes i wish i could just lock myself up in my room and not have to deal with anyone or anything
i dnt fucking care if u dnt care, I DONT LIKE IT. nd if u dnt like tht i dnt like it then i cld care less. thts how i feel about it and i will continue to feel that way!
i know they say to never go to sleep mad and resolve the problem now but i just dont want to talk right now.
family....
lets take the time to vent. well today has been an interesting day… i had my ups and downs. my day started off with feeling agitated and then it was just okay and then it went back to being irritated and then it was happy. i made my love smile. you see, my family doesnt exactly seem to like him but they havent really taken the time to get to know him and i told him that whether they like it...
sometimes being different or opposite can be a bad thing because people dont understand you or see things how you see it because they are different from you
i hate how society and media kind of creates what perfection is. no one can ever be every single one of those qualities. there is not one person in this world that can qualify for every single one of them. so perfection is not reality.
fuck perfection
you know when you really think, you find alot of things about yourself that you feel you need to fix because of something that happened.
i realized not too long ago that i complain about everything alot. so even though its not even close to new years, my resolution is to not complain about everything so much. i know there are soooo many other things that i need to fix about myself but i feel that that is one thing i need to fix. i have many more problems that i need to resolve. but no matter how much i fix and improve myself, i...
Love me, love me, say that you love me
lifes a climb, but the views great
August 2012
1 post
feeling wonders
right now, i’m sitting on my bed, just thinking and wondering and feeling my heart. right now, the feeling that is strong is emptiness. i just don’t feel complete. i feel like something is missing but i don’t know what exactly is missing. that is the part that i’m wondering about.
July 2012
7 posts
missing you
On February 13,2012, i started dating this amazing guy who is also my best friend. and we were almost inseperable for the first couple of months until we started arguing or in his words debating. i feel like we “debate” more frequent. at this point, i feel like our relationship isnt as strong as it used to be and i feel like being together is an everyday challenge. i just dont feel the...
“I don’t want to live To waste another day Underneath the shadow of...”
– Shinedown
hmmm...
hmmm… right now… im just feeling like ehh.. im just having all these emotions right now and i dont know what to do about it. what should i do? happy, sad, angry, depressed, excited, idk… just i really dont know what to think or do. and im not sure how or why this is happening. ive just been down lately. the things i found interesting or exciting before, are now not important and...
blogging
so its just another day.. been through alot lately.. had a really big scare this past week and ive been really moody lately. been crying myself to sleep everyday and been crying at least 3 times a day. i dont even think thats healthy. i dont know. i think im just majorly depressed but i dont know what the cause is. and i havent been feeling well lately. ive been throwing up for the past 2 weeks....
June 2012
2 posts
....
PAD! Tyler Welch, since you start off with calling me a douche, i will start off by calling you pad. and im very proud to win this night because it is our 4 month anniversary. and i dont think i can ever love you more than ever. tonight was our most emotional night and ive opened up to you even more. I LOVE YOU BABE!
Tyler welch, i love you! And you mean the entire universe to me. I dont know what id do without you. Id probably be in the dumps by now if i didnt have you.
May 2012
5 posts
Clumsy Thumbsy bit on Ellen
person 1: Have you gotten any grades lately? you havent said anything for a while.
person 2: im getting a B in Christianity and an A in pornography.
lol. that is the funniest thing.
english
Ms.Davis: truism. its a noun. a truth that is so well known that it is almost unnecessary to say it. "you only live once" is a truism.
Emily: YOLO!
random conversation
*cassidy signing my yearbook* *me doing whatever i was doing*
Cassidy: do you speak english?
Me: *LMFAO* of course i speak english
Through my life many people have come and gone.
When they go, they leave my in a horrible state.
Tears flowing down my face.
Mind filled with memories
And a broken heart
I only hope is one day my heart will heal for good.
Blog Post #1
I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel but being in a relationship is nice and all but sometimes I just feel like I’d be happy if I was single. You know, not having to worry about anything. Sometimes it just relieves all the pressure and all the stress. And I don’t understand why some people think that if your dating as a teen that you should definitely have sex. Sex is something you are brought up...
April 2012
9 posts
